I've been meaning to update this for a few days, but I never could get my feelings out. I decided it would be a good outlet before I exploded. I was originally going to update this over something totally different related to my second job. But now I'm pissed off.
I was at my office job talking to my coworkers because we have legit nothing to do that day, and they were kind of picking on me but it was mostly playful and I was not being sensitive about it. Then after probably a half hour they started to get harsher, and I was just tired of it. I was just trying to explain a theory I have that you can do anything you want, if you want to work for it or pay the price of the repercussions and I think they don't really understand my humor.
I'm just tired of being different and thinking different. Part of me is thinking it might be the way I'm coming off. Maybe I'm wording things bad, maybe I just think different, or maybe they're fucking morons. Maybe they were joking. I don't really care. I'm just tired of it.
Then the silver fox (hot older guy i work with) tries to stay out of it. We talk all the time and get along pretty well. But it's like, i want to talk to him but not have them interrupting us. Eventually, we just fucking talked over them.
But yeah, luckily, one of the chicks who picks on me isn't there on Friday so at least 2/3 days I'm at that job, she isn't there to start shit. But neither is silver fox that day. :/
Idk how to cope with it. I guess ignore them and talk over them? But silver fox doesn't like to be rude and neither do I. Sigh.
Good thing the job will look amazing on my resume though. or at least worth the hassle. I guess i should just wear headphones and try not to make friends? idk.
some day i will talk about the gas station job. i have such mixed feelings about it.